This post is gonna be a bit different then most have been, mostly because I feel like I just need to write. Dating is HARD. I don't think women talk about how hard it is, other then with their super close friends, because I think its hard to admit when a date does lead to something more. Even though myself I know that it didn't work out it was because it wasn't the right thing for both people, its hard. And I probably beat myself up over it more then I should.
Lets be real a moment. Its draining. Getting to know someone, and to feel like you trust them enough to open up to them takes a lot. And then to try not to get your hopes up too much after a date, when we all do, is hard. And then there is the moment after a date that I try not to get to excited or try not to over think it all, which never works. And then its the awful moment when he says there wasn't that click.
And I try not to let it get to me. And I know its incredibly silly to get sad about a guy after one date. But I do. And that's me. Which makes me think I shouldn't be dating, because it's this awful cycle.
But in the end, I still want that ONE person. I want to BE in love, and to be LOVED. I know all this will be worth it someday. And if I don't put myself out there I won't find that, so I am gonna keep going as HARD as it sometimes is. I try to keep telling myself to just ENJOY it. Enjoy Enjoy Enjoy!
So clearly date #14 is not the one. Maybe I will make it all the way to my goal of dates for the year.
